This is OOC for me okay.. but i thought i’d share.
okay before I get started here.. i am not looking for anything.. i am not trying to start any fights.. i am just writing for me and me only and i have decided to share with the lot of you. i am writing to get it out of my head and hopefully calm my soul some.
as most of you know I have a friend who’s a Marine and he’s currently deployed. On Friday he gave me some sad news. and i cried. because it saddend me . the weekend passed and i didn’t think about it much. Monday .. i was in chat.. and i ended up crying like a baby….I’m worried. altho I know he knows what he’s doing i still worry. this has NOTHING to do with the fact that i wanna screw him till his brain melts. It has to do with the fact that i’ve gotten to know him. He’s no longer just a solider in camo. there’s a face and a name attached. so its bugs me more. well it bugs me anyway but i can deal with it when watching the news as i don’t know any of them. So to help me deal with this and stay focus i’m gonna follow some advice Glory gave me to help me untill i can talk ot him again and know he’s safe. I cried.. because he’s out there serving in the military to protect what i have and where i live . I quite often take for granted what he’s out there protecting. I sit here knowing that he may very well die out there all in the name of freedom.( that scares me very deeply and i don’t like it) . which should never be taken for granted altho it is quite often. This is why i cried… for those reasons. so yeah it bugs me hell the fact that our Military is over there and the fact that some of them won’t return home alive should bug the fuck outta anyone.so yeah.. this was for me.. and me only.. i feel better now.. and i may have cried when i wrote this down on paper last night.. but i didn’t when i typed it.. but i feel better.. i always do after i write..
